In a calculus proof the outcome is subject to the laws of mathematics. Christianity is not like that. Whether Christianity is true is itself incarnational. The only way you show it to be true or false is the way you live your life. This is why youth directors and even the Jars of Clay are dead on people listening to Nine Inch Nails. Because Trent Reznor is such a powerful voice who earnestly sought God and found nothing. This is why his first two albums are the ones Christians like the least. Pretty Hate Machine in particular is all about apostasy.
As for me I have earnestly sought God and found nothing. And gotten handily rejected by the church. And I am a pretty virtuous person. People on the spectrum have much higher rates of non religiosity than the general population. We don’t have the capacity to concoct God! The fact that God could just be all in your head is an affront to Christians. But if Christianity were really true wouldn’t the people who couldn’t concoct God be the ones that found him the most easily instead of the least easily?
As I have gotten older I’ve lost the parts of myself I would need to exist to be faith filled. That doesn’t mean God doesn’t talk to me, it’s just that the conversations normally revolve around wanting me to commit suicide.