I have been in contact with someone further along in being destroyed by their mental illness. Sadly we are no longer friends. But a couple of things I noticed from her.
She would write out each word in compound words. So the site Remedyfind became Remedy Find. I find in the last couple years I have done that too.
She would listen to more upbeat music like 80’s new wave. I have noticed in the last three years doing that too, listening to that kind of music and hopeful music like Luke Brindley and The Innocence Mission. I used to listen mostly to sad bastard indie.
One thing I have noticed about myself is I no longer get that clean feeling people promise after taking a shower. This is evidenced by me often wearing dirty shirts after I shower.