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holding territory

the lower you go the more your life resembles war your responsibility is to hold territory and the rest of the world's responsibility is to hurt you for doing so I was meditating on this poem and thinking about how the more disabilities you have the worse you get...

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The Supernatural

it's difficult to believe in the supernatural unless they're going after you I believe our brain blocks out the supernatural the same way a neurotypical's brain blocks out extraneous stimuli.  Of course this is offensive to philosophical materialists as well as...

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ideation

Great article on suicidal ideation. At 27, I’ve settled into a comfortable coexistence with my suicidality. We’ve made peace, or at least a temporary accord negotiated by therapy and medication. It’s still hard sometimes, but not as hard as you might think. What makes...

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Fight or Flight

Great post on fight or flight from The Realistic Autistic: This reminded me of a theory I read years ago regarding deer, humans, and human society. Deer have two modes: calm and upset. They mainly live in calm, unless predators or some kind of threat occurs. At which...

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48

Creator of TempleOS, Terry Davis, Has Passed Away Terrence Andrew Davis, sole creator and developer of TempleOS (née LoseThos), has passed away at age 48. Davis suffered from mental illness -- schizophrenia -- which had a severe impact on his life. He claimed he...

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compound words

I have been in contact with someone further along in being destroyed by their mental illness.  Sadly we are no longer friends.  But a couple of things I noticed from her. She would write out each word in compound words.  So the site Remedyfind became Remedy Find.  I...

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God, one or three

If you want to know me you should read this article on a programmer that believes God is instructing him on how to build and operating system. The article rings true because I fit the profile pretty well.  Someone who is a programmer, is mentally ill, and has had a...

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Mental Advent

A parody of advent, for people who the church wished didn't exist. Week 1: The Empowerment Candle -  Hope is great but without power it usually just melts away.  For example if you are in an abusive or exploitative situation, having power is what counters these people...

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On Grunge

Piece on grunge and the death of Chris Cornell: You might think grunge is about anger, but that’s not completely true. Yes, it can sound that way, but it’s really about depression and cynicism. Those two go hand-in-hand, along with their nasty little sister, anxiety....

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